Today is one of those days…..
I understand this is a journey I am on but I want out. I would rather not feel anything anymore. I also know this is wrong but I am so ready to just give up and quit.
I hate feeling this way. I am tired of hurting. I have gotten so good at masking how I feel most of the time know one realizes the internal battle raging inside of me.
It is like being on a perpetual teeter totter. Anger, depression, anger, depression. I could handle numb. I could handle the old me.
Today is going to be one of those days. I hate life right now.
I’m sorry………gives you a hug.
Beloved, even on these days that you feel you hate life remember that I love you. I know it’s hard, I know there are days you just want to go back to nothingness. But I have so much more for you, I am creating in you something beautiful out of ashes. It is a painful process, but I go with you. I love you so much and desire for you to be free – completely free. God….